Journey- to- Wellness
Journey- to- Wellness
August 3,2006
I am finally writing. My therapist Dr Gallway said it was time to get back to writing I am almost embarrassed.
I thought our session on Tuesday was awesome I am very proud to be amongst such honest and open and caring women and I am glad that we can all be there for each other
I am going through a confusing time right now I opened up about my session with Rhonda I am still mulling it over in my mind I though I would have received her notes by now because a lot of my confusion arises from her and her observations which I didn't fully understand
I cam home from my trip expecting to have a session with Rhonda at 1:30 on July 27. A half hour before Barry called and said she was running late and it would be at least an hour after my scheduled time. I was disapointed but there was nothing I could do He phoned an houyr later saying they needed to postpone it to another day That pissed me off
WHen we finally agreed to a time which was more convenient for her than me I just wanst happyt
Angie you are so right about going into it negative I tried as hard as I could to be positive and open moinded but tpoday I can sit here and say What the hell was I thinking Spending nearly $400 to have a women speak to me over the phone with the intention of healing me and advising me without seeing me or knowing me When I made the appoinntment I was desparate I wouldl have done just about anything I could And I love Heather and I so respected everything she said (of course I still do) But that experience was clearly not for me.
I decided to just go with my feelings about everything AND FOOD THIS WEEK since I had no report from Rhonda and couldnt speak with Heather I was doing ok Now I should be doing ok I just had my rolfing session and it was great So much of my body is released and I have that lightness and flowing. I made a desicion to trun a matter over to God as it was out of my control. I have an appointment with my internist tomorrow to go over my health and treatmenst etcIt was unanamous by the GI doc and my surgeon that Western med cannot help my chronic back and leg pain and my IBS. My work woith my chiropreactor is going well it is going slow but there is definite improvement He was doing a report for me to turn into my Medical group so that I could try to get coverage becuase he is very expensive. Well they told me yesterday that the report was lost in his computer and he couldnt find it and was going out of town
My anxiety was through the roof I was out of control How could I get any financiall help with proof and the report.
After making myself crazy for quite some time I got donw on my knees and prayed to God for help and to turn the whole mater over to Him. I was totally helpless. Its in Gods hands now
I am highly emotional right now and need to take a break.
I want youy all to know that I am OK and I will be OK. God will take care of me and I will write more later
I love you all
In love & health
KAren
August 3,2006
I am finally writing. My therapist Dr Gallway said it was time to get back to writing I am almost embarrassed.
I thought our session on Tuesday was awesome I am very proud to be amongst such honest and open and caring women and I am glad that we can all be there for each other
I am going through a confusing time right now I opened up about my session with Rhonda I am still mulling it over in my mind I though I would have received her notes by now because a lot of my confusion arises from her and her observations which I didn't fully understand
I cam home from my trip expecting to have a session with Rhonda at 1:30 on July 27. A half hour before Barry called and said she was running late and it would be at least an hour after my scheduled time. I was disapointed but there was nothing I could do He phoned an houyr later saying they needed to postpone it to another day That pissed me off
WHen we finally agreed to a time which was more convenient for her than me I just wanst happyt
Angie you are so right about going into it negative I tried as hard as I could to be positive and open moinded but tpoday I can sit here and say What the hell was I thinking Spending nearly $400 to have a women speak to me over the phone with the intention of healing me and advising me without seeing me or knowing me When I made the appoinntment I was desparate I wouldl have done just about anything I could And I love Heather and I so respected everything she said (of course I still do) But that experience was clearly not for me.
I decided to just go with my feelings about everything AND FOOD THIS WEEK since I had no report from Rhonda and couldnt speak with Heather I was doing ok Now I should be doing ok I just had my rolfing session and it was great So much of my body is released and I have that lightness and flowing. I made a desicion to trun a matter over to God as it was out of my control. I have an appointment with my internist tomorrow to go over my health and treatmenst etcIt was unanamous by the GI doc and my surgeon that Western med cannot help my chronic back and leg pain and my IBS. My work woith my chiropreactor is going well it is going slow but there is definite improvement He was doing a report for me to turn into my Medical group so that I could try to get coverage becuase he is very expensive. Well they told me yesterday that the report was lost in his computer and he couldnt find it and was going out of town
My anxiety was through the roof I was out of control How could I get any financiall help with proof and the report.
After making myself crazy for quite some time I got donw on my knees and prayed to God for help and to turn the whole mater over to Him. I was totally helpless. Its in Gods hands now
I am highly emotional right now and need to take a break.
I want youy all to know that I am OK and I will be OK. God will take care of me and I will write more later
I love you all
In love & health
KAren
posted by karen at 5:55 PM
2 Comments:
Karen,
I am so glad you are writing! For me, it can help tremendously to put my thoughts into writing! It really helps me sort through a lot.
It is interesting what lessons we face in our lives. One thing I have realized for myself is that, whatever challenge I am presented with is what I most need to work on. In your case, it strikes me that what's most important at this point for you is to learn to TRUST YOURSELF. It's great to seek out advice from others who are knowledgeable in their field. You seem to have plenty of great resources to tap into! Ultimately, though, it is YOU who has to make any decision. Others can give you their opinion, but they cannot make decisions FOR you. And, sometimes, another's advice isn't necessarily worth following for you.
I know very well how confusing it can be. I, too, often have trouble with making decisions for myself. But, what we have to realize, is that we cannot expect others to always be there and take care of us. Ultimately, we ourselves are the only ones we can count on to ALWAYS be there! You are there with yourself from the moment you are born until the moment you die! Who else is?? No other human being! If you're religious, you can say "God" is always there with you. Ultimately, in my opinion, God is yourself - you are God. Because God/spirit/universal energy is everywhere and everyone...
..Ok, I'm getting sidelined. I think the challenge is for you to learn to listen to your inner voice and trust yourself - follow your own advice! I think you know that, too. You mentioned that you're always seeking outside validation. Know that you can receive that validation from WITHIN! Follow your inner guidance! Trust your intuition! You'll be amazed at how things will fall into place for you! Allow yourself to trust that, no matter what decision you make at any given time, you are always in the exact right place for you to be in! Trust in the divine perfection of your life!
with love,
Emily
Hi Karen, just wanted to say hi, and that I totally support you. I agree with what Emily wrote...she is such a great writer, I find she often writes beautifully exactly what I'd like to say. So basically "ditto" to what Em said, and take care of yourself.
Love,
Frida
xoxo
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